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Broken Remnants

She was never destined to grow from an innocent child into a well-adjusted woman. No, fate had crueler plans, molding her into a monster instead. Shattered and fragmented, she learned to mimic faces and feign appropriate reactions, donning masks to hide the darkness metastasizing inside.   With each passing year, the sweet, carefree girl faded further away, consumed by spreading shadows. Innocence withered and humanity slowly leached out, replaced by a yawning emptiness. She became a shell, broken remnants rattling inside, the promising bloom of youth choked off and left to decay. By adulthood, the transformation was complete. The bright-eyed child was no more than a distant memory, a taunting fantasy of what might have been. In her place stood a broken woman wearing a convincing human guise, damaged and dangerous. She had grown into a monster they created.​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​​

Both Sides Now

As I reflect on my journey from who I was to who I've become in Christ, the lyrics of "Both Sides Now" take on a deeper, more personal meaning. In my younger days, I was like the "angel hair" and "ice cream castles in the air" - innocent, idealistic, and perhaps naive. The "feather canyons everywhere" represented the vast, unexplored potential of life that stretched out before me. I looked at the world with wide-eyed wonder, like gazing at clouds and seeing endless possibilities, but under dark clouds. But as I grew older and experiences shaped me, those same clouds began to "block the sun." Life's challenges, disappointments, and hardships "rained and snowed on everyone," and I realized that the world was not always as idyllic as I had once believed. There were "so many things I would have done, but clouds got in my way" - obstacles and setbacks that hindered my plans and dreams. Yet, even in the midst of th

Lay With Me

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As I think of the words of the song, “Field Of Stone” I can't help but see a reflection of God’s love that He pours upon us. When I sing the question, "Would you lay with me in a field of stone?" it reminds me of how God is always with me, even in the hardest and most barren times of my life. His love is steadfast and unchanging, like a rock I can cling to. The lyrics "If my needs were strong, would you lay with me?" make me think of how God is intimately acquainted with my deepest needs and desires. He knows me better than I know myself, and He is always ready to meet me where I am. When my soul feels dry and parched, like lips that "grow dry," I can trust that God will "wet them" with His living water, refreshing and sustaining me. The image of walking "a thousand miles through the burning sand" and wiping "the blood away from my dying hand" paints a vivid picture of the lengths to which God goes to reach us and rescue u

Finding Peace in the Face of Lingering Connections

Letting go is one of the most challenging aspects of the  human experience, especially when a part of us still  yearns to maintain a connection. Whether it's a past relationship, a cherished memory, or an unfulfilled dream, the process of moving forward can be daunting. However, learning to let go while acknowledging the desire for connection is a crucial step towards inner peace and personal growth. The Struggle of Holding On When we find ourselves holding onto something or someone,  it's often rooted in fear – fear of change, fear of the unknown,  or fear of losing a part of ourselves. We may cling to the  comfort of  familiarity, even if it no longer serves us. This  struggle can manifest  in various ways, such as constantly  checking an ex's social media  profiles, replaying old  conversations in our minds, or refusing to  let go of a  project that has run its course. The Power of Acceptance The first step in letting go is accepting the reality of  the situation. Acknow