Adena M'lynn's Voice

by Adena M’lynn She used to dream in pink and pirouettes— a swirl of sugar plum fairies spinning across hardwood floors, slippers soft as lullabies, tutus blooming like springtime in her chest. Each night, she whispered wishes into the seams of her pillow, braiding tomorrow with glitter and the promise of an “attagirl”! But no one told her that monsters don’t always live under beds— sometimes they live down the hall, smell like beer and betrayal, and wear the face of someone who says “I love you” without meaning it. She danced anyway, even when the music got swallowed by screams, even when the lights flickered like the truth no one would name. She learned how to bend before she learned how to break— flexible like forgiveness she never owed. The sugar plum fairies stopped coming. Replaced by silence, and a body that never felt like home again. A stage turned into a cell, a costume into a mask she wore just to survive. Now she doesn’t dream in pink— she dreams in warning signs, locks on ...

by Adena M’lynn There are days when words fold in on themselves— like paper cranes in a storm. When grief grows too heavy for syllables to lift, and the mouth becomes a tomb of unfinished prayers. I’ve tried to name the ache, to pull it out like a splinter of meaning lodged beneath the skin of memory— but it refuses to come clean. Instead, it hums behind my ribs, a silent hymn I can’t translate. Some things don’t have letters. Some pain doesn’t rhyme. Sometimes you open your mouth and what comes out isn’t language— it’s breath, or sob,  or scream, or silence so loud it swallows the room. I’ve written poems that bled through pages, each line a bandage on something I couldn’t explain. I’ve spoken truth in metaphors because the real words were too raw,  too real. And still— it wasn’t enough. Because how do you write the sound of your heart breaking in a language that requires grammar? How do you paint the color of despair without making it beautiful? Some pain refuses to be roman...