Loneliness
Loneliness does not arrive loudly. It settles in the room and waits. It sits in the chair across from you and says nothing. It follows you into the kitchen. It stands beside you at the sink while you run water over dishes you do not remember using. The pain of it is physical. Your chest tightens for no clear reason. Your jaw stays clenched long after the conversation that never happened. Sleep becomes thin. You wake as if someone called your name, but no one did. There is a particular kind of exhaustion that comes from not being seen. It is not the tiredness of work. It is the tiredness of holding yourself together without witness. You begin to narrate your own life in your head because no one else is listening. You rehearse stories you will never tell. You answer questions that were never asked. Food loses taste. Music sounds distant. Even the air feels different, as if it belongs to other people more than it belongs to you. You start to measure time by silenc...