“hiii”

 

i wish you would come for a visit.

not a long stay,

not a grand entrance,

just

just your voice breaking this silence

that’s strangling me.


i search for the answers to why.

why you stay away.

why i lied. 

why no chigger jokes.

why the only echoes i hear

are my own cries ricocheting

off the walls of my mind.


tears keep coming,

uninvited but faithful,

like they know something i don’t.

they drip down my skin,

salty proof that longing

still causes pain.


i wish you would visit.

i’d open the door to my heart so wide,

it would creak on its hinges—

but it wouldn’t slam shut.

no.

i’d hold it open like our promise,

like a prayer i’ve whispered too many times,

like hope that refuses to rot.


and i’d greet you with a hug so fierce,

so desperate,

you’d feel every of missed smile

pour out of me at once.

the words i could never say

would spill down my arms

into your chest.


will you just say hi?

just one syllable,

a crack in the distance,

a bridge strong enough

to carry me out of this waiting.


hiii—

such a small word,

but in it lives a universe.

and i’d live there,

if only you’d let me.

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