Adena M'lynn's Voice

Over the next few days, I will be uploading my life story, apologizing to individuals, talking about prison, how people can help others, and where help can be found for those who are living with abuse issues that might be impacting your life in ways you that keep you from living a full life. You might be suffering from autoimmune issues, anxiety, suicidal ideation, self-harm, etc...  I doubt I will see the inside of a court room due to my illness, so it's important for me to be honest, own my wrongs, and seek forgiveness. I also want people to know I do not blame anyone for what happened to me as child. I love my parents and I do believe they were not equipped to handle the child I became. I would steal, lie, touch men inappropriately and more. I suspect my mom was also abused, just as I am witnessing today, the heartbreak my niece is going through as she tries to save her own daughter from an abuser. This is one of the letters I wrote to those at the Security and Exchange Commissi...

Childhood sexual abuse (CSA) is a traumatic experience that leaves lasting effects on a survivor’s mental, emotional, and even physical well-being. When CSA is untreated or unacknowledged, the child’s developmental trajectory can be profoundly altered, leading to a cascade of difficult and often self-destructive coping mechanisms. Survivors often grapple with dissociation, self-harm, eating disorders, compulsive lying, and impaired trust and love. These outcomes, intertwined with the survivor’s developmental stage during the abuse, underscore the critical importance of early intervention and therapeutic support. Childhood Perception and Processing of Trauma Children process their environment differently from adults. Their cognitive and emotional frameworks are not fully developed, which means they often lack the ability to make sense of experiences—especially traumatic ones. Children may not even fully understand what has happened to them, nor can they easily articulate their feeli...

  I am not making excuses for myself—I truly didn’t know any better. For as long as I can remember, when I didn’t have the answers, I made things up. It wasn’t because I wanted to deceive anyone; it’s just how my mind has operated since childhood, I was told to keep his secret. Lying became a way of coping, a habit that started small but grew into something far to hard to control. I learned to lie, to protect a secret. From a young age, I learned to bend the truth, to hide behind lies—first out of keeping secrets, then fear, then out of survival. As a child, I didn’t understand that this was wrong; it was simply how I navigated the world, especially when things didn’t make sense (memory lapses) or felt too overwhelming. But looking back after years of therapy and prison, I see how that pattern of behavior has shaped my life in ways I never anticipated, trapping me in cycles of deception that I didn’t even realize I created.    I will add another thing, knowing now about...